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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

i'm not happy

i don't know what happened to me.
i just can't seem to be happy.
i don't feel loved anymore.
i thought i have been a good daughter.
or at least working hard towards being one.
or probably not hard enough?
my mum seems to be unhappy with me all the time.
even the slightest thing can make her vent her anger at me.
i have had enough.
in the end it turns out that i'm the one who's venting anger.
i know. i shouldn't be complaining.
my mum is a fabulous mum.
if not for her, i won't be having all that i'm having now.
she's always there when i'm not well.
worry abt every single thing for me.
but i just suddenly feel it's no longer like this.
probably its that stupid menopause again.
i detest it!
i hope it gets off my mum soon! or RIGHT NOW!
i want back my cheerful and loving mum.

i'm some sort in a depression now i think.
i don't feel good abt myself.
when i'm out, i can't help but being so self-conscious.
just what's wrong with me?
i don't know.
i need my confidence back.

and i'm disappointed that it seems to be that i'm just another friend.
i don't mean anything i suppose.
probably i'm really the dumbest gal ever.

SMILE :)
12:25 AM;